disappointed

I knew it! Disappointments again and again. Maybe I don't deserve to be happy. Maybe I don't deserve to get what I have always wanted. Maybe my dreams will never come true.

But maybe.. Just maybe, I shouldn't give up so easily.

BUT this is the second time I experienced this heartbreak. The feeling is worse than having a break up. Maybe I shouldn't have hope so much.

I kept blaming myself. And even blame my parents. Because my mom ever said to me that she would pray that I won't get what I want. I cried my heart out. And didn't talk to her for a day.

I know I was wrong. I shouldn't have reacted that way.

I should accept the fact that this is not meant for me. And Allah has his plans fix for me. I shouldn't blame anyone. Have faith in Him, Raikha.